Wednesday, September 29, 2010
We are blessed that Chad has a precious boss who understands the needs of a family and she told Chad to take off as much time as we needed after learning of the miscarriage yesterday. I had a pre op appointment at the hospital at 11 and Chad wanted to go with me. When we got home, I knew that I didn't need to sit around the house and dwell on the news so we headed out to the golf course. We have wanted to take Parker (1) because he really likes to "play golf" and (2) he loves to ride in a golf cart.
It was a really sweet afternoon.
Parker and Daddy with their clubs
Walking to get the cart
Putting on the green
After the golf outing, we stopped by the pumpkin patch to get our pumpkins for the season. I don't think that I took a picture of the ones that we picked but we got a daddy one, mommy one, and a baby one. I didn't get any good pictures of Parker because he just wasn't into my picture taking.
I thank the Lord for the sweet blessing of Parker or I would NOT be handling this miscarriage very well.
We have no idea what we are going to do now. We have pretty much exhausted all of the money that we saved for fertility treatments so IVF is probably out. We do have some money that my sweet grandmother left us but I just don't think that I want to spend thousands and not be guaranteed a child. We might try some other options that are FAR less hopeful than IVF but it's worth a shot. When I am physically and emotionally ready, we will discuss that.
I am going to throw myself back into running to give me a focus. I ran this morning for the first time and I only made it 1.75 miles before I died. I had taken 2 months off and it's amazing how quickly you get out of shape. I am hoping to run twice a day to work back up and pass where I was before the pregnancy.
Thanks for all of the prayers and support. It's still hard for me to talk about because talking about it makes it real. The D&C is Friday and I am sure that will be hard but I am claiming God's promises to always love and protect me. I know that He will be with me through the procedure and the physical and mental recovery. I don't know what I would do without my sweet family and dear friends.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
1. Parker is at school today and it's now the third week since he began Early Arts. The first two weeks were great. He was happy and really seemed to love it; however, Tuesday was a different day. He woke up with a snotty nose but he didn't have a fever and seemed ok so I sent him on to school. His teacher said he cried the entire 4 hours. :( My heart broke when I heard that and unfortunately, the tears began today as well. I have been worrying since I dropped him off at 9. I PRAY that he is having a better day. I bribed him with the prospect of ice cream after school if he was a big boy and didn't have any tears...
2. This pregnancy is getting me. Last night was the sickest I have been so far. I am just ready to start feeling better. I am 10 weeks today so I know that I should start feeling better soon.
3. I am really getting excited about UNA Homecoming. I love Homecoming weekend because it's a great opportunity to see friends that I don't get to see that often. Katy, Sara, Raycheal, and Melissa are coming so it should be a blast! Now I just have to figure out what to wear. I am getting a pretty nice pooch so it's not comfortable to button some of my clothes but I am not ready for maternity.... It's that weird in between time....
Thursday, September 16, 2010
I know that every pregnancy is different, but this one is really different than my first. With my pregnancy with Parker, the first trimester was really long. Time seemed to tick by so slowly as I was anticipating hitting the "golden" second trimester. I never got sick, aka: threw up, with Parker and I felt pretty good most days, however; I did feel sick in the evenings. I had NO appetite and there were very few things that were appealing. I ate LOTS of bagels with cream cheese and cheeseburgers.
This one is different. (Maybe it's a girl then??) I have an "unsettled" stomach pretty much every day, however; the past 2-3 days have actually been a little better. It's strange because my stomach is upset but I am starving at the same time. Lunch time seems to be when I am the hungriest. I am eating lots of cheese toast and sandwiches right now. I don't remember feeling hungry with Parker until about 6 months so I am worried that since I am already eating a good bit that I am going to be a WHALE! :) I could eat a quarter pounder with cheese from McDonald's everyday! Carbs are my friend right now.
I am actually already getting the "baby bump". My clothes are snug and they are really snug by the end of the night. If you ask Parker what's in my belly he will say a baby. We've asked him if he thinks it's a boy or a girl, he responds "boy girl." I guess he's hoping for both!!!
I am now 9 weeks so we and my fertility doctor is very happy that we have made it this far. HOPEFULLY, she will release me tomorrow so I will no longer have to drive to Huntsville for appointments once a week. I'll find out tomorrow. :)
Monday, September 13, 2010
Since it was so hot yesterday afternoon, I decided that we needed a pool. I have been watching the pools at Target and they are now 50% off so off we went to get Parker one. (although it looks like Chad had just as much fun!)
Parker loves the basketball goal.
The pool came with a slide but I didn't read the directions beforehand, imagine that, and I filled up the pool first. You were supposed to tie down the slide first and then fill the pool. Parker didn't even know the difference yesterday.
Labor Day weekend we packed up our stuff and headed to lake Guntersville for the weekend. Chad's family (dad's side) get together for a fun weekend getaway during Labor Day Weekend. We've done it the past two years so I guess that it's tradition now! The kids (and adults) had a ball!
Parker with Carrington
Parker and Allye
Friday, September 10, 2010
I must start out by saying, "My husband is amazing!" I have always known this but yesterday I was really reminded...
Parker and I were playing in the backyard yesterday when Chad got home from work. He walked up with the cutest little grin on his face when he handed me a ring box. I looked at him strange because I knew that he was stopping by Jamie Hood for me to pick up my rings because they were beyond gross and needed a good cleaning... :) I thought it was odd for Jamie Hood to return my rings in a new ring box.
Chad just smiled and said, "Open it." Holy cow, did I open it. Inside was a beautiful black and white diamond ring. (I tried to take a picture but none of them did the ring justice.) It's three small bands that loop around each other. I AM IN LOVE WITH IT!!
Of course, being the Debbie Downer that I am, immediately asked how much he spent... He said not to worry. He got his bonus yesterday and used part of the money to buy me the ring! How sweet! I know that there are so many things that he would love to buy himself but instead he bought me the ring.
Presents on your birthday and Christmas are nice, but there is nothing better than a present "for no reason."
However, I wish that the story ended here... but it does not....
The ring needed to be sized because it was WAY to big but of course I still had to put it on my finger. About the time I am drooling over it, our sweet neighbor stuck his head over the fence and told Chad to come over and get some okra.. While Chad walked off, I decided to clean up the yard and put Parker's outside toys away. I am walking around putting up toys and I look down and notice....
The brand new, beautiful ring was gone!!!
I immediately start sobbing. Chad is still next door and I am literally crawling through the grass trying to find it. I am absolutely FREAKING OUT at this point. About five minutes later, Chad returns and I am crying so hard at this point he looks terrified. He couldn't even be mad at me. We retrace my steps and THANKFULLY after what seems like an eternity, Chad steps on the ring so he found it! I have NEVER been so upset in my life!!
All I kept thinking was, "Chad is NEVER going to buy me any jewelry again!" Some of you may remember that my original wedding band and engagement ring were left by the sink (by me I'm afraid ) and my cat knocked them down the kitchen sink.. Unfortunately, the dish disposal was then turned on and i think that you can figure out what happened next. :(
I am so blessed to have such a loving husband because he really did not get angry with me at all. I am sure that on the inside he was wanting to yell at me but I think that he fell so sorry for me because I was crying so much.
Thanks Chad!!! I LOVE YOU!!!
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Tuesday was a big day in the Greenhaw household. My sweet baby started preschool. I was a little more emotional about it than I thought I would be. (I blame pregnancy!) I just can't believe he's almost 2! It's scary how fast time goes by. Chad got to come with me to take him to school. We slowly walked him down the hall to his little class, both dreading the tears to come.
We walked in the room, Parker ran from us both, starting playing and he never looked back. We stood and watched him play for a few minutes but I decided that it would be best for us to sneak away. I really thought that he would cry but he didn't. He was instantly happy to have new friends and toys to play with.
As Chad and I left, we both felt out of sorts. I didn't really know what to think. Don't get me wrong, I was thrilled that there were no tears, but he didn't even miss me a bit! That will break your heart! :)
I am glad to begin this new chapter and I know that he will love school. And let's be honest, I am going to LOVE the break!
Parker on the first day of preschool