Thursday, July 16, 2009
Tears are streaming down my face as I write this post. I have just calmed down from the "ugly cry." I just watched the entire episode of the show 16 and Pregnant on MTV. I have watched a few episodes of the show over the past few weeks and I didn't really know what to think of it however tonight an episode just aired that has deeply touched my heart. A sweet little 16 year old couple got pregnant with a baby girl. They both came from dysfunctional families and knew that they would not be able to care for a child. During the pregnancy, they decided to give the baby up for adoption.
They got to choose the couple that would take their daughter. First of all, what a task that would be. Choosing the parents for your child! I can't imagine how difficult that would be. But what really touched my heart tonight was the couple that was chosen to adopt the baby. They were a couple that would be our friends. They were young, cute, energetic and were desperatly wanted a child. They said that they had been trying for a few years and they just weren't able to conceive.
As they were sharing their story and their desperation for a child, I could not contain my tears. That could have been us! We could still be trying, going to the fertility doctor, hoping and praying for a child of our own. Adoption is a wonderful thing but it was always so hard when people knew that we were trying and not getting pregnant and they would say, "You can always adopt." It's so much greater than that. Yes, adoption is wonderful but when your heart YEARNS for the love of your own child, that option just does not seem enough. The show filmed the time that the birth parents had with their baby girl and when they handed her to her new parents. It's so ironic because two people are filled with such sorrow while the other two are filled with joy. Their prayers are being answered!
Now being blessed with Parker makes me realize even more what a true blessing a child is. The Lord has been so good to me and Chad. He heard our hearts desire for a child of our own. Each day I pray that I will always be thankful for what He has blessed us with.
Friday, July 10, 2009
I had butterflies in my stomach all day in anticipation of tonight. Cara and I ran our first 5K race. A 5K is 3.2 miles and the race was down at McFarland Park with the proceeds going to St. Jude research hospital. There was a big crowd which was a little intimidating. Our strategy was to start in the back of the pack so we wouldn't start out at a faster pace than we were used to. Some people are crazy! The winner of the race ran it in like 17 minutes! I can't even imagine running that fast! We hit the mile marker at 10:15 so we were staying on track to our normal pace.
I was worried about my hip before the race but surprisingly it didn't really bother me during the race. It is pretty sore now but I am just resting. I forgot my camera but Cara brought hers so I will try to get some pictures to post! I am proud of myself because we just started running about 6-7 weeks ago. I am going to take a little time off, doctor's orders, but I hope to run in the Outback run July 25th.
My goal was to finish and hopefully finish under 40:00 which I was able to do! Who knows, maybe I can get Chad to run with me next time!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
WARNING: This might be a little to much info for my male readers ..consider yourself warned...
As I have previously written, I have been running every other day now for about six weeks. Cara and I are really sticking to our commitment to run together. We are meeting at 5:45 am at my house and running 3 miles. It takes us about thirty minutes which is slow but hey, at least we can finish!
However, it's not all roses...About two weeks ago I noticed that my left hip was hurting and every time I ran the pain became more intense. It is shooting pain in my left hip but I just kept running through the pain. Last week I took two days off hoping that it would feel better but when I ran Monday morning, it quickly returned. It's also causing me trouble when walking and going up stairs is difficult, especially when I am carrying Parker.
I decided that it was time to make an appointment so I called the Bone and Joint clinic last week and they said I could come in today. So I just kept on running through the pain and I went to the doctor this afternoon. (I got to leave AMSTI a little early, YEA!) First of all, that office is HUGE and it was PACKED with people in the waiting room. I was so mad at myself for forgetting my book. (I am now addicted to the vampires!) I waited out in the waiting room for about an hour. When they finally called me back they took me immediately to the Xray room. They did xrays and then had me wait in another waiting room. Two hours after I arrived, I went to a room to wait on Dr. Goodman. The nurse came in (and MEN-this is where you need to be warned) told me to strip down to my undies...ok, so I immediately think, 'What underwear did I wear this morning?" I had no idea that I would have to strip down...So I am sitting on the table in my undies wrapped in the warm soft paper towel wrap waiting for the doctor.
I had never met him and in walks this pretty young guy. I was so embarrassed because I was NOT in underwear that I would want to stand in front of a man I did know. So he tells me to get off the table and stand up on the floor. He has me do all of these wierd stretches and poses....Remind you...I am still in my underwear....His hands are all over my legs and hip...SO AWQARD! He then tells me to lay on the table and he moves my leg just about up to my head as I lay there. He keeps asking, "Does this hurt?" "Does this hurt?" and all I could concentrate on is, "I am basically doing the splits in my panties!!""
(He was a very profession doctor and very nice, it was just awkard.)
He finishes and tells me to cover up with the lovely paper wrap. He looks at my Xrays and he says that he can't see a stress fracture but he is worried that might be the problem. He tells me I need to stop running immediately. I then tell him why this is not possible. Cara and I had planned to run the St. Jude 5K run Friday night. I had been working so hard to prepare for it and I wanted to complete my goal. We argue a bit and he says that I can run but he said I would need a shot in my hip to help with the pain. By the way, that shot was AWFUL. It hurt like crazy! It's a thick medicine and it seemed to take forever to go in my hip. He said that he is hoping that it is bercidis..(have no idea how to spell that). After Friday night, he asked me to stop running for two weeks and then I will come in for a follow up appointment. Hopefully it will be healed up by then but if not, he wants to do an MRI.
I left the office about three hours ago and it is still hurting but the pain is not so bad so hopefully it's not the fracture....
MORAL of the story: Always wear cute but COVERING underwear if you go to the bone and joint clinic for a hip injury!!
Saturday, July 4, 2009
I can't believe that it's already July! Where oh where as the summer gone?? I start AMSTI next week so for the next two weeks I will be sitting in workshops from 8:00-3:30!! The right thing to do is be positive and smile about it but that is so hard. I don't want to miss any time from Parker right now so I am not too pumped about it but THANKFULLY this is our last summer to go!!
We have been on the go this summer going to the pool, trips, etc. We went back to Panama City in June with Chad's family and had a blast! I wish that we could've stayed longer!! Going back always makes me miss living there. We drove through the parking lot of my old school and it just breaks my heart. I made so many wonderful friends and and I met so many wonderful families at Patronis.
A few weeks ago Chad and Jerry were in a fashion show at the mall!! Jerry is our little brother from Big Brothers Big Sisters. He's been our little for over three years now! He LOVED being on stage as the center of attention. It actually made me cry because he was so happy!
Parker turned seven months old yesterday! It's hard to believe how fast he is growing up! He is really starting to the get "big boy" look now and it just breaks my heart although it is fun to see him learning and doing so many new things! He can say mama and dada although he says dada more frequently. He loves to drink juice out of his sippy cup. He can't hold the cup yet but I am hoping he will start doing that soon. I keep trying to get him to hold his bottle but I think that he rather me do it! :) We went to visit Harper, Katy, and Luke in Jasper on Tuesday night and it quickly made me realize that Parker needed new toys. HIs were boring compared to what Harper had. He loved playing with Harper's toys so of course first thing Wednesday morning I was off to Target. He will just sit on his blanket on the carpet and play with his toys!
He is still eating great! The only thing I have found that he won't eat is green peas. Lately he's going through a phase where he doesn't want to drink his formula so we are fighting that a bit but all in all anything you put in his mouth, he will eat! He is doing better about wanting to be on his stomach. He used to scream bloody murder if you put him on his stomach. The kid STILL has not rolled over. The doctor said not to worry but I just want to tell Parker, just roll over so I'll quit worrying about it!! I think he's going to crawl before he rolls!!
Parker getting ready to go to the pool!
My dad, my Uncle Rich, Parker, and Parker's cousin, Kayden
Sleeping on the beach!
Yummy! Daddy gave me a taste of his ice cream!
Chad and Jerry modeling GAP clothes! Aren't they cute??